In January of 2014; I told myself I was done feeling terrible. Done being ashamed of how I looked and done using food as a coping mechanism.
So I changed. I started eating the right portions, watching my calories and moving. Moving a lot. Since January 6, I have lost 40lbs.
I should be proud of my weight loss, and I am. For the past 17 days however, my body has been a source of frustration and anger. One of the downfalls of being overweight is losing your menstrual cycle. I was always consistent in the past, then I had my son and it went all out of whack. In the 4 years that he's been alive, I've had a handful of periods, and usually they are because my doctor gives me progesterone to make one happen. They last a long time and are very painful.... so I just stopped telling the doctor and let myself be.
Now that I've lost 40lbs, my body wants to be healthy and so my period is back with vengeance! I've been on my period for 17 days! In those 17 days I've also had the worst of the worst period symptoms. I've kept moving and exercising and eating right..... but I also haven't lost a pound. It's so frustrating. I keep telling myself that it's because I am on my period and all I can think is, "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, WHY WONT THIS THING END!?" I want to get on the scale and know that I am still making progress. My motivation is falling apart because of this stupid period.
So I am going to go hike a few miles, do some yoga and crunches and keep going.... but really I want to give in right now. I want to eat bad and I want to quit. I feel defeated. 17 days of no change is hard. It's frustrating.... but I can get over it.
